Wednesday 3rd January 2007

Hey again
Today has been ok i suppose, i am staying round my aunts until saturday in abridge. Me, her, Tony and the dog, Jacob, just slobbed about all day watching tv and me surfing the net. I watched Saddam Hussein being hanged on youtube earlier, sick but awesome. Celebrity Big Brother started tonight at 8 so i watched that. Donny from it is so cool, he is from a band called Towers Of London and he came on the show pissed out of his head, he is like i don't give a shit about nobody person which is wicked, i totally respect that kind of attitude cos in life to get far you should only care for yourself and those that really matter to you otheriwse you won't get anywhere in life. I also watched Wayne's World, that is hilarious, Wayne is so dumb! Nobody commented me or anything on myspace today so people who are reading this then please add me onto your friends or anything on myspace, my link is www.myspace.com/xxxjodixxx
Dunno what i am doing tomorrow but i will most probably log on and tell you tomorrow night anyway. Right now i am sitting in my aunts room in the attic, watching some shitty film and staring at the dog on the bed cos he is staring at me. He is all wrapped up in a blanket. It's actually pretty cosy up here, the room is green which is my favourite colour so i don't mind being in here. I miss Nathan, i haven't spoken to him since about three days ago which sucks as we hardly talk anymore. I'm never on msn because i haven't been home for about a month and he hasn't text me so if he don't wanna talk to me then i'm not gonna bug him. Sometimes i wonder why he is with me? I mean look at my life, it's basically worthless and shitty, i'm useless and just a little pathetic kid who has made nothing of herself. I think i am pretty ugly but i don't think i am minging because i have had boyfriends. Not many though, i can't hold a relationship for that long, i always mess it up like i did with Dave, Adam and Glen. Oh well though i mean this is all part of life i guess! I guess you're all wondering wow she is such a loser and yeah don't be afraid to think it or say it because i know i am and i honestly don't give a damn, i mean why should I? If i make myself believe that i'm not then i would be lieing to myself. I have some pretty good ambitions or to put it simply some stuff i would like to do by the age i'm 16. I would like to sit and watch a sunset with a guy that i love, go to Camden Market, make out with a guy in his room, have a guy say he loves me and mean it and my last ambition is to be called beautiful for the first time. Those may sound pathetic but those are the little things that matter to me. So anyway i have nothing else to say for tonight so i'm checking out,
Laters
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