Yo guys,
today i ain't done much really. I walked the dog earlier down a field and now i have blisters on the back of my heels. I helped my aunt cook in the kitchen cos she owns a pub, i am now watching celebrity big brother in her room. I look a state today, i look like i've just got out of my death bed which is how i feel aswell. Don't know why though :S.
Danielle from big brother is such a drip, grrrrrrrr! I started one of my new years resolutions today, eating healthily. Today i have had a ham sandwich and a tomato. For dinner i am going to have jacket potato, chicken breast, vegetables. I love runner beans, cauliflower and brocolli. If runner beans didn't exist then i would go mental. I would have to live in a mental institute. They are like my favourite food ever and they really calm me down if i'm angry or upset or whatever. Why am i such a freak??? Oh well no point in judging who i am. When i go home on sunday i'm going to clean out my whole room and i mean clean out! I'm going to empty all my cupboards and rearrange all my stuff so my bedroom looks neat. I need to fix my t.v in my room as it doesn't work. I got stressed and smashed the ariel to it and now i can't get a picture on it. I'm really in the mood for a glass of lemonade but no all i'm going to drink from now on is diet coke or water. Healthy, healthy, healthy. Every night before i go to bed i'm going to do thirty sit ups. Before i go to bed i shall do part of a fitness video or just do some exercise in my room by myself. I can't do push ups so i will have to practise them. I might buy some weights so i can work on the muscles on my arms. I need to get a flatter stomach! For breakfast every morning i shall eat nothing, just drink a big glass of water. For lunch i shall have a bagel or something healthy. For dinner i shall eat jacket potato or boiled potatoes or something like that with vegetables and chicken or something. I need a punch bag! I'm going to start taking care of my body aswell, like every night when i have a bath i should shave my legs and stuff and then when i get out moisturise my body and stuff like that. I need to sort my nails out when they grow a bit longer. Anyway i'm getting rather bored so later guys,
x
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Friday, 5 January 2007
Thursday, 4 January 2007
Thursday 4th January 2007
Today i woke up quite late as last night i didn't go to bed until about three in the morning. Right now i'm sitting in my aunts room again watching some documentary about creatures that live in the sea, it wasn't my choice it was my aunts! I'm really cold! I'm not doing anything today really just lounging about eating chocolate as i have two big tins of sweets sitting next to me hehe. The fish on this documentary are so awesome, they are like all multi-coloured and poisonous and weird looking. One of them looks like a sock! Grool, oh that's a word made up of two, it means cool and great. I bet you people are probably thinking how does she sit at a computer so long, it must be boring but no it's not cos i get to sit in my green armchair with my legs up on a cushion as i have a laptop. See i can do anything while i'm sitting here, i have a can of diet coke in one hand and with the other i am slowly typing this whilst watching t.v. Usually i am a pretty fast typer but i'm trying to do three different things so i'm quite slow today. Later on i will probably go and take the dog out for a walk or something cos i can't go a day without going outside, even it's just going for a quick walk at least it's exercise and getting some fresh air. Staying inside is totally no good for you. I have New Years Resolutions that i'm starting on Monday. Resolution number one is; eat healthily (which i will actually stick to as monday comes!), Resolution number two; stop biting my nails (it's not good!), i am yet to come up with some more Resolutions. Crabs are so ugly, that is really random but i just saw a picture of one and seriously they are one of the most ugliest things i have ever seen! I know why chavs wear tracksuit bottoms now, it's because they are so comfortable, i am wearing a pair of blue ones now and they are so comfy, usually i get wedgies from jeans and shit but now i don't even have to keep moving in different positions. WOW! I'm into candles at the moment, they are so pretty. I have three lit at the moment; a multi-coloured one to the left of me that smells of all different kinds of chocolate stuff, a white one to the right of me which doesn't smell of anything really and i have a green one infront of me which smells of some kind of essence of something. I usually cut the wax off the candle when it sinks and my little stepsister wears them as bracelets on her arm. Anyway i'm gonna check out now, i'm gonna surf the net again, check my e-mails and myspace and stuff.
Laters
x
Laters
x
Wednesday, 3 January 2007
Wednesday 3rd January 2007
Hey again
Today has been ok i suppose, i am staying round my aunts until saturday in abridge. Me, her, Tony and the dog, Jacob, just slobbed about all day watching tv and me surfing the net. I watched Saddam Hussein being hanged on youtube earlier, sick but awesome. Celebrity Big Brother started tonight at 8 so i watched that. Donny from it is so cool, he is from a band called Towers Of London and he came on the show pissed out of his head, he is like i don't give a shit about nobody person which is wicked, i totally respect that kind of attitude cos in life to get far you should only care for yourself and those that really matter to you otheriwse you won't get anywhere in life. I also watched Wayne's World, that is hilarious, Wayne is so dumb! Nobody commented me or anything on myspace today so people who are reading this then please add me onto your friends or anything on myspace, my link is www.myspace.com/xxxjodixxx
Dunno what i am doing tomorrow but i will most probably log on and tell you tomorrow night anyway. Right now i am sitting in my aunts room in the attic, watching some shitty film and staring at the dog on the bed cos he is staring at me. He is all wrapped up in a blanket. It's actually pretty cosy up here, the room is green which is my favourite colour so i don't mind being in here. I miss Nathan, i haven't spoken to him since about three days ago which sucks as we hardly talk anymore. I'm never on msn because i haven't been home for about a month and he hasn't text me so if he don't wanna talk to me then i'm not gonna bug him. Sometimes i wonder why he is with me? I mean look at my life, it's basically worthless and shitty, i'm useless and just a little pathetic kid who has made nothing of herself. I think i am pretty ugly but i don't think i am minging because i have had boyfriends. Not many though, i can't hold a relationship for that long, i always mess it up like i did with Dave, Adam and Glen. Oh well though i mean this is all part of life i guess! I guess you're all wondering wow she is such a loser and yeah don't be afraid to think it or say it because i know i am and i honestly don't give a damn, i mean why should I? If i make myself believe that i'm not then i would be lieing to myself. I have some pretty good ambitions or to put it simply some stuff i would like to do by the age i'm 16. I would like to sit and watch a sunset with a guy that i love, go to Camden Market, make out with a guy in his room, have a guy say he loves me and mean it and my last ambition is to be called beautiful for the first time. Those may sound pathetic but those are the little things that matter to me. So anyway i have nothing else to say for tonight so i'm checking out,
Laters
x
Today has been ok i suppose, i am staying round my aunts until saturday in abridge. Me, her, Tony and the dog, Jacob, just slobbed about all day watching tv and me surfing the net. I watched Saddam Hussein being hanged on youtube earlier, sick but awesome. Celebrity Big Brother started tonight at 8 so i watched that. Donny from it is so cool, he is from a band called Towers Of London and he came on the show pissed out of his head, he is like i don't give a shit about nobody person which is wicked, i totally respect that kind of attitude cos in life to get far you should only care for yourself and those that really matter to you otheriwse you won't get anywhere in life. I also watched Wayne's World, that is hilarious, Wayne is so dumb! Nobody commented me or anything on myspace today so people who are reading this then please add me onto your friends or anything on myspace, my link is www.myspace.com/xxxjodixxx
Dunno what i am doing tomorrow but i will most probably log on and tell you tomorrow night anyway. Right now i am sitting in my aunts room in the attic, watching some shitty film and staring at the dog on the bed cos he is staring at me. He is all wrapped up in a blanket. It's actually pretty cosy up here, the room is green which is my favourite colour so i don't mind being in here. I miss Nathan, i haven't spoken to him since about three days ago which sucks as we hardly talk anymore. I'm never on msn because i haven't been home for about a month and he hasn't text me so if he don't wanna talk to me then i'm not gonna bug him. Sometimes i wonder why he is with me? I mean look at my life, it's basically worthless and shitty, i'm useless and just a little pathetic kid who has made nothing of herself. I think i am pretty ugly but i don't think i am minging because i have had boyfriends. Not many though, i can't hold a relationship for that long, i always mess it up like i did with Dave, Adam and Glen. Oh well though i mean this is all part of life i guess! I guess you're all wondering wow she is such a loser and yeah don't be afraid to think it or say it because i know i am and i honestly don't give a damn, i mean why should I? If i make myself believe that i'm not then i would be lieing to myself. I have some pretty good ambitions or to put it simply some stuff i would like to do by the age i'm 16. I would like to sit and watch a sunset with a guy that i love, go to Camden Market, make out with a guy in his room, have a guy say he loves me and mean it and my last ambition is to be called beautiful for the first time. Those may sound pathetic but those are the little things that matter to me. So anyway i have nothing else to say for tonight so i'm checking out,
Laters
x
About Me
Hey guys,
this is my first blog so i'm just gonna tell ya sum stuff bout me. I'm not telling you my last name but my middle name is Lea which is ok i guess. I live in Tilbury, Essex in England but I'm moving soon to Woodford or around that area. It sucks i really don't wanna go but i have to as my brother has bought my house. I have a boyfriend called Nathan but i'm not sure how long it's gonna work out for. I love him with all my heart, hopefully he feels the same way. He lives in Manchester which also sucks god damn it! I have a pet iguana, he kicks ass, his name is Grinch and he hates xmas. He is sooo cool, he is five, and he thinks he is a dog. Oh yeah by the way he whips people if you annoy him, he knows when you're saying bad stuff about him so i'd watch it if i was you! My mum and dad got divorced when i was six, i didn't really know what was happening at the time so it didn't bother me and it still doesn't. My mum met some scottish dude called James when i was seven and they divorced when i was thirteen which i loved cos he treated me like shit and was a total prick who thought could control me and my mum. Soon after the divorce my mum met someone else, this time a irish dude, called Richard and he is ok i guess cos they have only recently just met. He kinda rules but that will soon wear off when i have to move in with him. When i was eight my dad kidnapped me for a couple of months as my mum wouldn't let him see me. She got the police involved and they got me back finally after loads of hiding around. I saw my mum when she was devastated, heartbroken and had nothing to live for. She turned into an alcoholic when she split up with my stepdad and didn't give a shit about me, she practically pushed me out of her life and made me look after myself. It broke my heart and all my school grades dropped, i started falling asleep in lessons because i couldn't sleep at home, i didn't do any homework as all i could think of was my mum, i started to slit my wrists which i have loads of scars on my left arm for, i once tried commiting suicide but it didn't work, i started writing depressing poems and made sure i lost all my friends because of this as i didn't want anybody knowing what went on in my life. I was alone for about three months and eventually i got them back and my mum changed into a whole new person. I have never been the same sicne, it's like a part of me is missing. Anyway enough of the depressing shit. My best friend is Angela and she is like the twin of me but not looks wise. If i didn't have Angela in my life i would be nothing, i would probably shrivel up and die or just kill myself. My other close mate is Liz, we have been through some tough shit like her mum getting breast cancer. Luckily she survived and don't worry i have permission to talk about this. I am in year nine at school and i'm nearly fourteen on the 7th April. I share my birthday with my mum. I don't take after my mum or dad, i take after my auntie, she was a rebel when she was little and so am i. We are both crazy and get along like a house on fire. So erm i like listening to all kinds of music. My favourite bands are Taking Back Sunday, Blink 182, From First To Last, Panic! At The Disco, Three Doors Down etc.... I also like people like Beyonce, 50 Cent, Eminem and shit like that. My favourite films are Top Gun, Thirteen, Dirty Dancing 2, Step Up, Kidulthood and A Nightmare Before Christmas. I don't really know what else to say but i will be on here every day except from when i can't, i will tell you what i have been up to every day so you can see what my life is like. =]
this is my first blog so i'm just gonna tell ya sum stuff bout me. I'm not telling you my last name but my middle name is Lea which is ok i guess. I live in Tilbury, Essex in England but I'm moving soon to Woodford or around that area. It sucks i really don't wanna go but i have to as my brother has bought my house. I have a boyfriend called Nathan but i'm not sure how long it's gonna work out for. I love him with all my heart, hopefully he feels the same way. He lives in Manchester which also sucks god damn it! I have a pet iguana, he kicks ass, his name is Grinch and he hates xmas. He is sooo cool, he is five, and he thinks he is a dog. Oh yeah by the way he whips people if you annoy him, he knows when you're saying bad stuff about him so i'd watch it if i was you! My mum and dad got divorced when i was six, i didn't really know what was happening at the time so it didn't bother me and it still doesn't. My mum met some scottish dude called James when i was seven and they divorced when i was thirteen which i loved cos he treated me like shit and was a total prick who thought could control me and my mum. Soon after the divorce my mum met someone else, this time a irish dude, called Richard and he is ok i guess cos they have only recently just met. He kinda rules but that will soon wear off when i have to move in with him. When i was eight my dad kidnapped me for a couple of months as my mum wouldn't let him see me. She got the police involved and they got me back finally after loads of hiding around. I saw my mum when she was devastated, heartbroken and had nothing to live for. She turned into an alcoholic when she split up with my stepdad and didn't give a shit about me, she practically pushed me out of her life and made me look after myself. It broke my heart and all my school grades dropped, i started falling asleep in lessons because i couldn't sleep at home, i didn't do any homework as all i could think of was my mum, i started to slit my wrists which i have loads of scars on my left arm for, i once tried commiting suicide but it didn't work, i started writing depressing poems and made sure i lost all my friends because of this as i didn't want anybody knowing what went on in my life. I was alone for about three months and eventually i got them back and my mum changed into a whole new person. I have never been the same sicne, it's like a part of me is missing. Anyway enough of the depressing shit. My best friend is Angela and she is like the twin of me but not looks wise. If i didn't have Angela in my life i would be nothing, i would probably shrivel up and die or just kill myself. My other close mate is Liz, we have been through some tough shit like her mum getting breast cancer. Luckily she survived and don't worry i have permission to talk about this. I am in year nine at school and i'm nearly fourteen on the 7th April. I share my birthday with my mum. I don't take after my mum or dad, i take after my auntie, she was a rebel when she was little and so am i. We are both crazy and get along like a house on fire. So erm i like listening to all kinds of music. My favourite bands are Taking Back Sunday, Blink 182, From First To Last, Panic! At The Disco, Three Doors Down etc.... I also like people like Beyonce, 50 Cent, Eminem and shit like that. My favourite films are Top Gun, Thirteen, Dirty Dancing 2, Step Up, Kidulthood and A Nightmare Before Christmas. I don't really know what else to say but i will be on here every day except from when i can't, i will tell you what i have been up to every day so you can see what my life is like. =]
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